confession no. 7

this blog entry is embarrassing.
but to be held accountable, i shall confess.
i have done horrible since my last post. i have only gained and feel ridiculous. if i had to blame something other than myself, i would direct it toward my eight-months at the hospital. food was easily available, all day long...and after 3, very long twelve-hour days, i would come home and hit the couch and not really move from there. i always wonder and have asked several times....how i can be doing so good, loosing weight, getting compliments, feeling on top of the world - and it slowly comes crashing down.
with all other aspects of my life back to normal, happy, and wonderful - i have made a new commitment to loose 50 lbs this year, 30 by my anniversary in April. that's obtainable.
i did hit the gym a couple of times with one of my bf's a few weeks ago, but since, neither of us have been back.
with a definite change in life and lifestyle, i am ready to accomplish this.